Notice: This entry was published 5 years ago and may no longer reflect my views today.
If there’s anything that will have me completely obsessed with something, it’s emotional investment. I wish I could be deep and meaningful and say that I enjoy games first and foremost for the tight storyline, detailed world-building, intuitive gameplay, expansive content, and all those other things that make a game wonderful. And I do enjoy all of those. I could talk about lore and characters all day, and how every minute detail in the game relates to the canon and how completely awesome that is.
But deep down, I’m a shallow, uncultured swine. The first thing I ask when I hear of a game is, “Is there romance?”
If there is romance, my second question is, “Who can I romance?” Not only do I must be able to romance someone, it must be someone I like.
It’s not that I’m unhappy with my own relationship or that I’m lacking something that can only be pacified with fictional romance (hmm I guess I don’t have magical powers or else I could just zap people who make me mad but then they’d probably make me Tranquil so~). In fact, my enjoyment has nothing to do with my real life. I’m sure some of you can understand. I’ve been obsessing over fictional characters since I was ten years old long before I understood the mechanics of a good story, and that’s not gonna change anytime soon. I may be committed, but I’m not dead. And hey, better to obsess over imaginary guys than real ones amirite?
It’s not even self-insertion or wish fulfillment at this point. I just like romance. Despite my often cynical views about love in real life, the idea of two (albeit make believe) people finding happiness with each other makes me happy and feel young again.
Well, okay… maybe I lied. Fiction is the only time I can enjoy pure romance. If anyone tries to sweep me off my feet with grand gestures now, I’d just end up asking them what their annual income is and their projected career path in five to ten years. I need love but I also need stability. Fluff isn’t enough in the real world, but sometimes I wish it was.